So I turn 19 in about 4 hours. I feel so very old. At night I can't sleep and all day I worry. To top it all off, many horrible things happened the last few days, such as...

1) I lost my job. The employer said I "didn't smile enough". WHAT?! What kind of BS is that? It didn't pay enough anyw/ay...

2) My guinea pig, Gigabyte, almost died! The second I got out of that job, Gigabyte got sick. This ended in a visit to the vet, then a visit to the ER vet the next Saturday, THEN two more vet visits. The damage? Around 500 or more. Money left over? Next to none.

3) THEN, Mallow the hamster got sick, he got a scratch on his eye and had to go to the specialist vet on a Saturday night. $130 gone in a few moments.

4) I don't have my car yet. Not having money for it sucks, and the only car I want happens to be a stick shift, which I can't drive. I'm a space case already. Let's not give me the chance to practice being confused. Mother still offered to foot $2000 cash for a car, any car.

5) I'm sick. As per usual, I feel like crap. I am coughing, in pain, and haven't been able to feel well for a while. I need to see a doctor, but I don't have the money for a chest x-ray and every other stupid thing.

6) I feel like a housewife. I'm cleaning up after my boyfriend, cooking, and doing all the animal care. Not to mention, footing a lot of bills I can't afford. And I'm stuck here, there's nothing I can do, and no where I can go. Such BS!



I hate to whine, but this might be the worst year so far. I hope things get better.