But I honestly don't think I have it so bad. I'm battling this fight all by my own. I fight the nightmares and lonelyness, manage to do their stupid chores and try to pass school. I'm so DONE. When did this become about everyone and when did I lose my choice to do anything for myself?

Don't I deserve to be happy? I'm not settling for misery. I accept that things won't be perfect. SO? I will live my life how I please. It's time for ME to be happy and live and BREATHE on my own. I'm worth saving. I don't want to be buried six feet underground with only the headstone to speak the bullshit my family thinks.

I'm sick. And I need to get better. So I'm taking time off and I am going to work on getting better. I don't want to settle for anything but what I deserve. I'm tired of mom treating me like shit.

Today I asked about some clothes and she screamed at me like I was supposed to know when she got paid. Then she took me shopping and then got groceries. I feel like a cheap whore. I let her yell at me, make me cry, and treat me like shit, and then let her treat me to things I don't need so she can do it again. This happens all the time. I thought it was just me crying. But I'm not crying because I want things. I'm crying because I'm tired of being yelled at.

I'm not a stray dog, dammit. I don't need to be yelled at and then treated and shooed away. I'm a human being and deserve to be happy and have some respect. I'm tired of settling for NOTHING. I'm tired of this stalemate.

I need to live and be happy. So I'm done being content with BS. I'm done.

I have troubles with my family too. Well, certain members. They take offense at me *gasp* not being able to put their needs first 100% of the time. Do what you have to do. I've done it before, we get to this point where we can't help BUT stake a stand and tell the world to screw off.